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It's been a while since I've written. I've been trying to sort through all of the emotions that resulted from my friend's death. I realized something yesterday -- I don't want to be sad anymore, but I don't want to put this behind me. I don't want to forget him, because he was such an incredible person and his spirit and passion for life should live on.
If I've learned something from this, it's that you shouldn't care what people think about you, and love like you mean it. Don't hold anything back, because you never know what could happen.

I was driving home from his service and this song came on the radio -- it was insanely fitting. I started crying so hard I had to pull over.



"If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you "